Sunday, December 19, 2010

Moving on

No need to stay where I was..I was so blinded to have believed. Now that everything is in the clearing I realized how I was wrong to have even gave you a portion of me... I was just an itch that needed to be scratched. Yeah I was a fool to believe that your not heartless. No more pain I choose to not hurt by you anymore. If you think that you won on this game of yours then feel that winning... its yours...I will not let me be touched by you no more...

Friday, December 10, 2010

A sudden change of heart came like a thief in the night, un invited, un expected , unwanted. So sudden that it took my feelings away in a mere blink of an eye... Am I happy about it?? Still looking for answers...when I have finally decided to stop here you are again...

Monday, December 6, 2010

The unexpected

turned off by un expectancy. Feelings geared to what it needed to get in touch with.... Yeah reality.... Finally acceptance
Comes clean with what's real by what's here on hand.

Sunday, December 5, 2010


One of the good things about staying home is I get to put decorations around the house. Yeh I did Halloween,Thanksgiving and (just this morning) Christmas. This is my first to experience a real Christmas tree and wow it smells so good!!! Not only the house is so reddish and silverish (that the chosen color for this year red and silver),the tree brings out that tingly smell that makes me sniff the air everytime I pass by it. We also put up alot of christmas lights outside so the house is twinkling at night time. It's nice,really nice...this little things brings me happiness all the time.


I have my nerves set up to 'slow mode', and my body is adjusted to it now. I used to run around and do errands just so I don't get bored, well it's been 4 months since I left my job so yeah all i do now is just cook and watch movies.
I dont want to get used to this tho, I would like to get a job soon and start earning.... And yeah have a lovely time for myself even for just an hour or two. I used to boggle my head on what to do when I was alone coz I was not used to that,now that I'm finally around with alot of people, I miss the quiet solitude of me,my music and my thoughts. Yeah life is weird, like all the time.

Starry starry night

I wanna be positive about this,optimistic as I could be. I will have that one wish I always long for. In Gods perfect time

Saturday, December 4, 2010


Questions that suffocates me...over and over. I'll be wondering for the rest of my life. This one wish I can never have.

Friday, December 3, 2010


My heart remains to where it was before,stupid I know but i just want to stand there still until I run out of reasons to justify why. My heart doesn't ache anymore for what it longs for I have accepted it's not for me to keep. Everything happens for a reason whatever that is I'm still trying to understand and accept it.